Monday, June 22, 2009

From whence we came...one child's story

We traveled 15 minutes on a main road, 15 minutes on a farming road, and then we came to the end of the road and the driver said: "we must walk from here." "Walk?," I said to myself. "I have all of our money for our trip home, all of our passports, Zuri's adoption paperwork, and all of our carry-ons in this van." Should I take it or leave it in the car with the man that I do not know? "Walk where?" I hid our stuff as best I could and we began the walk up the narrow path. Gayla holding Zuri as we walked along between tea and sugarcane fields up into the place where Zuri was born. I say "place" because it really was not a village, but a tiny compound of a few mud huts (please watch the videos). "Are we really experiencing this," Gayla and I thought to ourselves. "This is where she was born and we are getting to see it." We nervously approached the compound because we were told that those living here were known to have confrontations with white people, so we should not be surprised if we had one too. When we arrived no one was there so we were able to take some quick photos and look around, but soon a man and a woman came carrying big loads of sugar cane on their heads and were surprised to find us awaiting their return. Both the man and the woman were distant, but when the woman found out who we were, and noticed Zuri - she warmed up quickly. This was the lady who saved Zuri's life - and there is no hyperbole in that statement. What we came to learn this day was that Zuri's birth mother was dying and so she came here to give birth and so she was born in a mud hut much like the ones that you see in the video. The reason you will not see the actual house is because her mother was forced to sell the tin roof of that house in exchange for money so that she could purchase medicine to comfort her as she was dying. We were able to see the plot of ground where the house stood at this time last year and we saw the plot of ground where her birth mother is buried - she died two weeks after Zuri was born. There was no marker, just a memory of where they had buried her.
While in Uganda, we learned that the plot of orphaned Uganda infants typically follows one of two paths. The first is that a neighbor or relative takes them in and cares for them as their own. The other path is abandonment and death and this is the path that Zuri would have travelled were it not for one special lady. The sacrifice of this young woman brings tears to our eyes almost every time we talk about it and even as I type this blog. I can assure you of this-money is hard to come by in this area and this sweet lady had to use some of her precious resources to hire a motorcycle driver to carry them to the orphanage that someone had told them about. Her actions and her sacrifice are why Zuri is alive and why Zuri is in our home, in our family, and in our arms. Because of fear of the appearance of child trafficking, we chose not to give her anything, but we sure pray that God would bless her for this act of kindness and I am confident that he will do so.
Walking this path with my family was an unbelievable experience. The life that Zuri would have had in the fields is drastically different from the life that God has for her here. I am not saying that her life there, if she were taken in by neighbors, would be awful, but it would have been awfully hard, and she may or may not have survived being premature and malnourished. Her life there may have been fine, but the canvas of opportunities would have been very small. The life God has for her here is one where she has an enormous blank canvas. She is the center of the attention of five faces. She is loved. She is cherished. She is pampered and she is adored. Not a day passes that I do not think about so many biblical parallels and how I was without hope, but God predestined that he would adopt me. I was lost, but he found me. I was malnourished, but God nursed me back to health and when I see her - I see myself. Outside of Christ, I have no hope, but because of Christ - my hope has been made complete.


It's a "we" thing...

For years I have been writing, preaching, studying, investigating, and remaining in a constant state of frustration over what it means that we are to love one another and that we were created to be interdependent. What does this practically look like and what does it mean for us as a people and as individuals saturated by western isolation? Yesterday at our church gathering as I looked across the room it was obvious what that means. Every person in that room contributed directly or indirectly to the adoption of Zuri. Some made monetary sacrifices, they gave of their prayers while we were away, and almost everyone of them greeted us at the airport! It is my heart for those who have walked with us in this journey to feel the satisfaction that they all had a part and that they are a part of the "we" that brought Zuri home. She has come home to us and that "us" is larger than our family of six. I am full of thanksgiving today for the "we" and not being stuck with just the "me."

Tuesday, June 16, 2009

Meet little Jimmy


IMG_2675, originally uploaded by jimmyrenslow.

I really like this picture because it says so much to me. This is little Jimmy (his actual name) and what I notice is that he is running without shoes on a dirt\rock road like most do in Uganda, he is having a blast with the lacrosse sticks that TYLA donated, he loved having his picture taken, and every time I saw him, he was full of life and fun - I like this photo a lot. I would love for him to have a family to share his joy with.

Monday, June 15, 2009

New days and new discoveries

We have found that Zuri has been met with great delight by all of our neighbors and our friends. Today, I went up to the circle where the boys play basketball and never made it because all of the neighbors came out to give well wishes and introductions. It was amazing. Neighbors who have lived next to one another for four years met today - amazing. The gift of Zuri continues to give in surprising ways! I hope you enjoy the two videos of this little one exploring and blossoming. We are thrilled to be a part of seeing God's work revealed in and through her each day!

Saturday, June 13, 2009

Zuri's first visit to Boone




I just thought that it would be neat for you all to see how Zuri is flourishing. She is a joy and a delight.



A New Beginning


"Coming alive" are the words that come to mind when I think about this adjustment period that we have been living for the past few days. Zuri is blossoming. She is happy and full of zeal and personality. She loves the big dog and has even been incredibly tolerant of all of the foreign strappings (car seat, high chair, buggies - come on where is her freedom?). Sure she wakes up at 4:30 each morning and that means that Gayla and I are both awake from then on (we are not as young as we used to be and cannot just fall back asleep), but in many ways we have come alive as well - our hearts are full. It is incredible how our hearts have opened up space for Zuri and she is our daughter and she is admired and cherished and loved just like our biological children. We are trying not to spoil her rotten, but we feel like grandparents in many ways because we are looking on her with different eyes as we did the first three - is a little bit of Oreo really going to hurt her and her little fits are more cute than we would have tolerated with our first three. Parenting almost a decade after the last baby has been much more fulfilling than it has been challenging - sure it has been tiring (I am writing this entry before six on a Saturday as I watch Zuri sleep in my bed), but what we have gained has far outweighed what we have given. You may think that this is impossible as I once did. I looked upon it from rational business eyes and could not comprehend how there would be a net gain, well boy was I wrong with my calculations. What we have "given up" is silly compared to what we have been given in exchange for a little comfort, money, and time. When it came down to the decision to adopt I felt like Jesus asked me why I would not adopt, and the honest answer was that I was scared and I was comfortable. So, I was forced to answer the question "is that enough to stop me from walking this road?" As is the case with Jesus, we stepped out just a little and God has completely astounded us with showers of love that surpasses all adjectives that I could try to throw at you - it is deeper than words.

In other news...My mom and sister left on Friday and Gayla's parents are here and we are enjoying family time. What you can look for it the next few days will be video of the airport arrival, pictures of Zuri's new life and discoveries in the USA, and our experience meeting the young lady who literally saved Zuri's life. Thank you to all of you for keeping us in your prayers and for your practical steps of love. You can feel free to come and see us too:)

Here is Zuri talking to Claudia on the phone before we left Uganda. and here is Leia with her Ugandan sisters

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

We made it...

It is 4:40 a.m. to our bodies and we are pooped. The kids are in the bed and we are trying to head that way too, but in honor of our friends at GSF and followers of the BLOG, I had to show you the answer to your many prayers...I mean really show it to you! I will do another blog with the scenes from the airport (which was overwhelming and extravagant), but this one had to go on tonight before we went to sleep so that it would be there for our friends at GSF. We miss you already!

Flight updates

We are delayed in New Jersey and will leave at around 5:30. (I will update this site as much as I can, but you can track it to: Continental number CO2325). Ho-hum...it is well with my soul. Africa has taught us to be patient. Update: 4:45...the kids are done. Stick a cork in them. Zuri is losing it (well she just fell asleep), Leia and Mac are about asleep and grumpy and teary and Boe is fine now that he got some ice cream. Gayla and Jimmy are perfect parents as always and are modeling this for their children - who is staying with our kids while we sleep for the next three days? We have four now ya know?

Home Sweet Home (USA at least)

Mac taking Zuri on a walk in New Jersey and us in Entebbee 24 hours ago

Well the much anticipated going through immigration with an adopted child process was just about as easy as you could imagine. We got here to New York and were completely finished with immigration and customs within twenty minutes. They just took the big magic envelope for Zuri and sent us along our way. We are now eating our first American food and the children are enjoying things that were so normal for them before - like gatorade (we are not liking the American prices though)! Zuri had about 10 runny diapers that we changed on the last leg from Europe to the USA, so she is struggling with something, but it was a pretty easy trip besides that - she slept and played and cried just a little. We are anxious to get back to our friends and family and share our new little daughter with those whom we love so much. Hope and Love to all of you!

P.S. This will be another blog for another time, but I wanted to at least mention now that we got to go and see where Zuri was born (mud-hut) and talk with the neighbor who payed for a boda (motor bike) to get her to the orphanage and save her life. These moments were surreal - we could not believe that we were actually getting to experience this. more later, but here we are walking the 10 minutes up to the four huts (village) that she came from...amazing stories friends!

Tuesday, June 9, 2009

Arrival in Amsterdam

We have arrived on our first leg and Zuri was amazing. She slept from take off until almost landing on Gayla's chest. She has gone through six wet-diaherea diapers though since we arrived at the airport in Entebbe, so please pray for her as we try to keep her hydrated and are not sure what is going on with her. The first plane had personal entertainment systems, so our older kids were well entertained for those eight hours. It is about 7:15 a.m. here now, but 1:15 a.m. to you in the east. We are now waiting and trying to get our boarding passes for our next flight to NY, but the Continental agents are not here yet-gotta run-I was not happy about leaving Uganda without them, but they left me no choice. Can't wait to see you guys and thanks for your prayers.

OK...one more Uganda post...

Nothing bad to report here. The pictures you see here are what we have been waiting on for three years. She has her passport and she has her visa!
Last night we stayed at the Golf Hotel in Kampala and slept without a mosquito net for the first time in five weeks and took two HOT SHOWERS!!! We will leave here at 6:30 p.m. with a driver and head to the airport in Enteebe for our 10:20 flight. We expect to be questioned several times to present papers to allow us to take Zuri, but we are prepared with copies to give them. We are not looking forward to the flights at the moment, but we are looking forward to what the flights bring to us! See you soon.

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Hopefully the final blog until New Jersey (Flight info)



From Jimmy: We hope that this is the final blog until we clear customs and immigration in New Jersey because we hope to not have any news to report:). We go tomorrow at 2:00 to Kampala to the Embassy and are hoping and expecting everything to go smoothly. Can't get enough Zuri? Check out the new videos on the video feed to the right of the page. Some of them are in HD and the others are in African loading time quality.
Flight Information: We leave Uganda at 10:20 p.m. on Tuesday (3:20 EST) and arrive home at 5:08 p.m (12:08 a.m. for us) on Wednesday and we will be arriving from Newark on Continental. Lisa Kody has a more detailed flight plan if you are interested - that is as much as we feel comfortable sharing on a blog.


From Gayla:
Well, leaving is bitter sweet. We had a wonderful night out with the Jacobsen's, Claudia and her girls and the Gwartneys and their children. It was a good night of laughter and Chinese food. We are so ready to be home but I have been trying to soak up all that I can and relish the things I will miss most. Problem is I'm not sure what I will miss most until I am at home missing it. Zuri has been staying with us exclusively since Friday night (we are in one room here and it was hard putting her to bed and then sneaking in but we figured it out ), h and I feel we have bonded more than ever. It has been such a sweet time learning what she likes, how she likes to go to sleep. her schedule, etc. For a while she seemed confused and cranky but she has adapted now and seems to know us as her own and I can't explain how perfect that feels. We were asked tonight to tell our favorite moments of our time here and I couldn't name just one. The thing that has warmed my heart the most has been watching our children adapt to Africa....watching them embrace the culture, learn to love and except differences in culture, and especially watching them become big brothers and big sister to their new little sister. They have fallen in love with her and it fills me up to watch. You will see it too when you watch them with her. I almost feel like a grandmother watching from different eyes at my children in a different role. I feel they have all three matured in such a short amount of time and I will be praying that what they have taken from this African experience won't be easily pushed aside once we hit American soil. We take so much for granted and are so easily distracted by electronics and schedules. We have slowed down here and I have treasured our time with our family....God, you are so good to give us this gift! We are so very excited to see everyone. Mom and Deddy, we all squealed when we read you were coming to the airport!!! I was hoping you got the hint, because we feel the same as we did when we had Boe, Mac, and Leia, and couldn't wait for you to see your new grandchild. She is PRECIOUS! We leave GSF tomorrow with some new friends and a new homeland that we are taking with us. Leia is spending the night with her new Ugandan sisters tonight. We are grateful to have bonded well for Zuri's sake and look forward to a future reunion. We come back in prayer for our next journey to get our next child if the Lord wills. We've given Claudia the task of matchmaking! Well, time to hit the hay. See you soon!! Gayla

This is Gayla talking on the phone with Lisa Kody!!!


Friday, June 5, 2009

Videos

Gayla has said that she does not have anything to add for today, but you can click on the video bar to the right and see her reaction from yesterday...finally (12 hours later).

I am crying...

Jimmy writing here...tears run down my nose as I type this blog entry and they keep coming. I can't believe it (well I can in one respect, but in so many others it seems like a dream). We are coming home with our new little girl and we are coming home together with not one single day to spare. It is Friday at 5:30 and I just got a text from Nathan Flook (our consular here in Uganda) and his text read: "It looks like everything is in order." I quickly replied: "Terrific, so what time would you like us to come by on Monday to pick up the papers since you are closed on Tuesday?" "2:00" were the numbers that quickly were texted back across the phone. Now you have to understand, there is no magic formula for how long it takes to get an adoption done in Uganda. You first have to be approved as the legal guardians by a judge and that takes an undetermined amount of time, then you have to get the child's Ugandan passport, then you have to get the child's immigration papers from the US Embassy and the child has to be qualified as an orphan from US standards and so a time table is not easlily guessed - and that is exaclty what it is - a calculated guess. So, two months ago Gayla and I sat down with a calendar and tried to determine what return day to pick. We picked Tuesday, June 9th as the day that we would return home together - that gave us five weeks to get this thing done - well do you know how long it took? FIVE WEEKS TO THE DAY! It is hard to take it all in. The emotions I feel are full of joy mixed with relief that I have longed to feel since we began this jounrey some three years ago.

So you know how in a good book there is a bittersweet feeling about closing a great chapter? Well, this chapter has not concluded quite yet, but I think I know how it is going to end - it might after all conclude with the six of us returning to Greensboro together, able to celebrate with our community together as a family - a family of six. I am so glad that God does not return to me the measure of my faith, for many times my faith has been very small, but God's faithfulness has been right on time. These tears (that have not stopped for the duration of this entry) embody the thankfulness that I feel to God, for our friends and for our family, for grant agencies, and for those who have inspired our family to pursue this hope and this love found in a tiny little baby that we call Zuri and through her, and through this journey, miraculously experience the deep deep love of God. Words cannot describe my joy and my thankfulness in this moment and in this moment I celebrate...finally celebrate...finally!

P.S. The video we talked about yesterday is still uploading...8 hours now.

Thursday, June 4, 2009

Kampala and coming home...

It looks good for us to come home together on Tuesday. Our visit was very good. Thank you for your prayers. It is 11:30 here and we have made a little video to send your way, but it has been uploading for 4 hours now and I cannot wait up any longer. Sorry. Thanks again for your prayers and walking with us in this journey. Maybe the little video will be uploaded by the morning provided the power does not go out during the night. Update: The video ran for 8 hours and still did not load. I am going to try another method. Maybe when you wake up it will be on there. Sorry.

Wednesday, June 3, 2009

When God's kingdom collides with earth

There are literally millions of babies who look like Zuri did when she came to Good Shepherds Fold, but most do not have the opportunity to be loved in the way that she was. I am not talking about the Renslow's, but by the staff here at G.S.F. She came terribly malnourished and vulnerable, but these people (Claudia (and her girls), the Gwartney's and the Jacobesens) poured out God's love emotionally, spiritually and physically, and we see what a difference that has made -their great sacrifices was to the gain of Zuri. I am struck by the fact that love is from God and if I love God like I say I do, then this love will naturally be translated into action (faith without works is dead). I am also convinced that this looks like a million different things for Christians all over the world. We are not all called to adopt, but we are all called to love - and love by its very definition is in motion and in action. So the question is not if I should love, but the question is who and how?

When I answer those questions and begin to love is when I am taking up my role in bringing God's kingdom to bare here on earth. Even typing these very words brings a sense of sadness at how little I actually love others. I am thrilled to lavish love on myself (love being defined by action), but when it comes to loving others I stumble, I pause, I hesitate, or I just refuse....but why? I do know by both experience and by the Scriptures that the deeper I know and love God, the more that love spills over outside of myself and touches the hearts and lives of others and therby God's kingdom of love collides with those living on the kingdom of earth.

Looking at pictures of Zuri as a baby and then after nine months of love is a signpost of what love looks like.

A new day...a new opportunity for hope...

Tomorrow we will go again to Kampala in hopes of receiving the passport that was supposed to take two days, but has now taken a week. We go with hope. There is nothing to be certain of, but we hope nevertheless and our experience tells us that our hope is in vain. But our hope is not placed in men and women, but in our God -who is ever compassionate and full of love and mercy. I am not sure where the roads of hope and faith diverge and faith becomes assurance and thereby becomes true faith, and I certainly cannot claim to have taken that road as of yet, but for now...I will settle for the road of hope. There is nothing to lose with hope is there? Disappointment? If we hope for nothing, then disappointment is held at bay, but is that even living or is it just dying a slow death? If my hope is in a person and this person fails to honor their promises then disappointment is certainly looming, but what if my hope is not in a person, but in a three-Persons? Ahw...is he going to disappoint me-is he going to disappoint us? Not if his ways are higher than my ways and his thoughts loftier than mine, and not if he knows and cares about every hair on our heads and loves us with an unfailing love - now that is something that I do have faith in and that is something that I can never be disappointed in. So, we go with hope. Hope, not found in a process or a person, but found in the same God as the Apostle Paul talked about in having hope...and in that Hope we have peace.

He delivered us from such a deadly peril, and he will deliver us. On him we have set our hope that he will deliver us again. You also must help us by prayer, so that many will give thanks on our behalf for the blessings granted us through the prayers of many (2 Cor. 1:10-11).

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Trip into town

One of the things I hope not to take for granted is being able to "go to town" easily. Every trip has to be planned and if you go into town , it is always courteous to call and see if anyone needs anything. We had hoped to go to Kampala today and get her passport but as you know, this has been postponed until Thursday. I was looking forward to going not just for the passport but to go to the grocery store (and Kampala is about 2 hours away). Jinja has grocery stores but they are very small and don't have many items. These grocery stores are about the size of a gas station and have everything from food to cleaning items so you can imagine there is not much selection. The grocery store in Kampala is more like what we are used to so it is a treat. It is funny to say a treat because I have learned to see things differently. Compared to our grocery stores, they don't have much...So much of the things they make have to be homemade because they don't use preservatives. We are out of groceries and I wanted to get a few meals that we could make on the days we are at GSF so I plan to make spaghetti and chili. These are two of the easiest meals in America that you can make in about 30 minutes. Here, I have to make it from scratch, boiling the tomatoes and blending them to make sauce. I am looking forward to making it because I haven't had the chance to cook much else than what I brought--- which has been tuna helper, mac and cheese, soups and whatever I could think of to mix with ground beef. The first thing I think we all want when we get back to the states is a huge salad! We decided it was too much to worry about if we were cleaning the vegetables enough to not get sick off them so we just decided to eat carbs for 5 weeks. Before I left , I wasn't eating breads and pasta and rice, mostly vegetables....here I've eaten only carbs and meat it seems!

We went to town with Mark and Amy Gwartney, and their kids, and Maggie, Claudia's daughter. They have been here a year now, originally from Virginia. When we went to get into the van they GSF uses they said, "we have to warn you, it usually has roaches!" Can honestly say I've been told many things, like sorry about the cheerios in the seat but never roaches! As soon as we got in, Leia saw one run over her seat right before she sat down!! We didn't see anymore that trip. Honestly though, after you ride 30 minutes over pot holes and in the bush with everyone walking for miles beside you, you feel blessed just to have transportation, and the roaches don't seem as bad.

We laughed riding back from getting groceries....Jimmy and I had to carry the eggs (30 each) in plastic grocery bags on our lap. No cartons, just the eggs in a bag. We were afraid if we put them on the floor of the van, they would all be cracked when we got home so we cuddled them like hens in our lap.

Thanks for your prayers for Thursday. I do know the Lord is with us and isn't surprised by all this. I feel my energy has gone into trusting the Lord if He has us staying longer instead of concentrating on praying it get done quickly. I do want to come home together on Tuesday though so if all of you reading this could be prayer warriors for us we would appreciate it. It can happen I'm just trying to not be disappointed....and trust the Lord during each hurdle.
Sandra, thanks for the note from Hanna. I wished I told you on the phone today, but remembered when we got off. It was laughter to our souls! We felt like she was talking to us! I guess I've done enough rambling! If anyone has contact with Danny Worm, please tell him we are thinking about him tonight as we are watching Ratatouille on Jimmy's computer and wishing he were here! (he doesn't have a computer and we're not sure he is getting to follow the blog).
We love and miss you all so very much!! Gayla

Hopes are fading to come home together...

There will be no passport today. The man in charge of releasing them is not in the office. All offices are closed tomorrow because it is a holiday and so it looks like the earliest we can get our passport is Thursday morning. This would only leave us whatever of Thursday is left, Friday and Monday to get the paperwork necessary for travel and that would be a miracle...so that is what we are praying for....If everything is fine with our papers then it is still possible, but we are grasping to what hope we have left that everything will go perfectly with our embassy. Please pray with us and pray that Nathan Flook is generous in issuing us her immigration papers.

Monday, June 1, 2009

We hear wedding bells over in Africa...

The Renslow's want to send our well wishes to Jason and Alisa and so congrats to them as they are now engaged! We are so thrilled from half way around the globe. We are very excited to celebrate this with you. Since we are 7 hours ahead of you we actually knew about it before it happened to them there.

Update on Zuri

This is from Gayla: Thanks for the prayers! Zuri is feeling much better today. She hasn't had a fever since last night and she has been in a great mood today! Our family is going a little stir crazy. The kids at GSF are in school each day until 4 so our kids don't really have much to do until then, so we do some chores around the guest house....laundry, dishes, general straightening up, etc., and then we play cards, ipod games, read, etc. We were hoping to hear from Isaac today but it is growing late and still no word. We will have to go into town tomorrow to get supplies because we are running out of food. The milk we bought on Saturday and just opened last night was spoiled. I think that is what made Jimmy sick all night...a huge bowl of cereal with spoiled milk. I poured it out this morning and he might as well been eating yogart with his cereal. I tasted it the first bite, but I guess his taste buds were taking some time off. He paid for it later, unfortunately. Anyway, I have to figure out what to fix us for dinner...

Since creating this video, we still do not have a passport,but we do have "promises" that we will have it by the end of this day. If so, we will be heading to the US Embassy tomorrow and if not, we will be left with more disappointment so we are praying that promises will be fulfilled and we can keep our 2:00 appointment at the Embassy. Update (10:00 p.m.): Vain promises...passport is not ready, they say it will be ready at 2:00 tomorrow - the time we are supposed to take it to the embassy.

A note from leia

prayers for our family.........
that the passport info would come thew
that we all would be able to come home together
for my parents to not be in so much stress
that God would show us what to do if the passport doesn't com in time to leave
and we wouldn't get sick again